3in1

i just got this 3in1 package - batuk, selsema dan sakit tekak, which is equivalent to = tak larat. lozenges bekalan dari Malaysia dah habis, so kena beli lemsip kat boots by esok. cuaca panas dan sejuk bersilih ganti sgt2 menduga kesihatan. isk isk

plus, tidur mlm asyik diganggu oleh superFaris. package 3in1 ni dialah yg hadiahkan. alhamdulillah dia dah nak baik. semoga daku cepat sembuh sbb ada assignment nak kena submit next week, then nak kena jumpa supervisor tunjuk progress.

agak2 kalau buat pulut kuning dengan rendang ayam boleh cepat baik tak? tapi persoalannye, apekah kaitan antara pulut kuning dgn package 3in1?

my superhero

Hari ni nak cerita pasal si anak teruna, Faris Akasyah. Sorry yer sayang, mama dah lama sangat sangat sangat nak blog pasal kamu. Too much to tell sampaikan mama slalu postpone (alasan hehehe). Entry ni just nak ingatkan mama progress Faris so far. Mama takde diary lain nak jot down itu ini, so hopefully bila Faris dah besar, I have something to remember about you. And you too can read this bila dah besar nanti.

Faris dah 2++ yrs, dah nak masuk 3 tahun this coming July. Kalau nak compare dgn kakak masa this age, kakak is more matured than you in terms of understanding and speech ability. But memang girls matang lebhi cepat dari boys, so don’t worry. Nothing wrong with you.

You talked a lot now when you are awake. Sampaikan mama pun heran mana Faris dapat energy nak cakap banyak2. Almost non-stop. Suara nyaring pulak tu. You’re a strong boy, sbb slalu lompat, lari, stunt and buli kakak. Hehe. Sian kakak kamu. Badan kamu ala2 ada muscle gitu, even papa pun notice.

These few days, you started to be independent during meal time. Memang masa Faris kat T* Taska dah diajar makan sendiri. But tu sebab cikgu suruh. Bila datang sini, mama or papa selalunya suap Faris sbb tak nak bersepah. But now you insist to eat on your own, be it using spoon or hand. I’m so happy for you but sad at the same time. Huhu. Faris dah big boy, not baby anymore.

Sekarang, Faris dah boleh speaking sikit2. Okla tu, better than nothing. You learned mostly from TV and kakak. Mama and papa slalunya cakap melayu jek kat rumah. But when we speak English with you, you usually understood, walaupun nak cakap balik tak berapa reti. Faham tgk cartoon pun dah cukup bagus. Your favourite cartoon/TV shows are Lazy Town, Dora, Ben & Holly, Humf and Peppa Pig. Kalau dulu mama bagi tgk Ultraman and Power Rangers, skarang mama dah banned sbb Faris ‘mengganas’ lepas tgk cerita2 action-packed ni. Until you can choose mana yg ok and mana yg tak ok, mama will ban that kind of entertainment.

Seronok pulak mama bercerita pasal kamu ni. You are so friendly, tak kisahla dgn anak mat salleh or anak Pakistan, semuanya Faris selamba je tegur or ajak main sama2 bila kat park. And yes, you love the park/playground soooo much!! Kalau hari2 pergi park pun tak boring. You like to play football dengan siapa2 jer, slalunya big boys. Then sedih sbb abang2 slalu taknak pass bola kat Faris. Hehe. Kelakar sangat. Bila kamu buat muka sedih, then abang2 pun layan jela sbb takut mama marah diorang. Don’t worry, kalau Faris suka sgt main bola, nanti papa ajar betul2 so that bila besar boleh jadi professional, siapa tahu kan?

Oklah, mama nak sambung buat literature review. For info, at this age, kakak dah dapat adik which is you. So, will you get a brother/sister too any sooner? Kalau mama tanya, Faris cakap nak adik girl. Kakak pun sama. Insyallah, kalau ada rezeki.. but not now, later ok.. love you so much!!

Good news Vs Bad news

Smalam ada berita baik dan berita kurang baik.

Lemme start with the good news first. My Aisya has progressed so well at her school. Yupp Aisya, mama lama tak blog pasal kamu sbb mama bz sokmo. Bz apa pon tak tahu la. Papa mesti cakap mama bz online window shopping. Hehehe.

So, today Aisya will receive the rainbow star point award during her school assembly. Actually the star point award tu almost every week pun dapat. Nothing special pun. But I like the way the school here rewards their students. All of the good behaviours and show of improvement will be awarded. But not in material form, just a piece of coloured paper. Cthnya, diroang akan dapat star point kalau habiskan meal or helpful with friends or progresses well in reading/writing or adjusting well to new environment, all sorts of them. I think they believe praising the kids for the good behaviours will make the kids do better and better in all sorts of things and improve their self-esteem. Tak sabar nak bukak kindy yg macam ni kat Mesia nanti (angan2 kena ada hehehe)

So, berbalik pada Aisya, rainbow star point tu maknanya dah pangkat tinggila, sbb star point diberi ikut colour code. But the more exciting news is Aisya said her teacher Miss Kaur told her that she’ll be transferred into Year 1 class next week. I’m still sceptical about this news, but for the time being I just accept it. Maybe we'll ask Miss Kaur some time during this week. Actually it’s good for Aisya coz now she’s placed in Foundation class (mcm tadika) sbb dia lahir in October sedangkan school start in September. Ni kes macam org lahir bulan January la. Since Aisya dah banyak blajar kat TM Taska, agak rugi dia join this group. For English learning, join mana2 group pun ok sbb dia still akan learn a lot. But for Maths, dia macam restart balik. Since mama love maths so much, mama nak anak2 mama pun suka maths gaks (hehehe mama psycho)

Enough said of the good news, which actually healed my sorrow heart a lil bit. Actually yesterday I received my 7th assignment mark and it was so awful. I was so devastated that I now plan to change my strategy for my Msc. It was way below my expectation. I knew I didn’t do so well like the previous modules, but I don’t think it was that bad. Hahaha. Tula padan muka siapa suruh ambil enteng. The mark is one thing, but the comment given is another thing, I found it was too short and too brief for my low mark. So, to satisfy myself, I emailed the tutor (a Dr. perhaps) and asking for explanation. And since the mark is so low, it drags my overall average marks, which make me impossible to get distinction (distinction means average >= 70). I still have 2 more assignments to submit and I don’t think I can get extremely high marks for them (kena dapat 76 minimum). Macam ni la kalau assignment tu all wordings and marking is so subjective. And in order to get Msc with distinction, I need to get distinctions for both assignments and projects. Macam mustahil, bolehkah?

So, now it’s time to change my strategy. Kalau sebelum ni strategy nak dapat distinction, sekarang ni strategy nak dapat Msc jer and nak jalan2 and enjoy my several months left in UK!!! So this weekend, off we go to Manchester (again) nak makan nasi dagang Yat and nasi Arab kat Jazeera (kecur air liur dah ni)! Kalau sempat menyelit, nak shopping kat Cheshire Oak outlet sementara rate tgh RM4.6+ per pound. Then on the way back nak singgah Stoke-On-Trent mengintai Pot Meirion or apa2 set pinggan mangkuk nak diangkut balik Malaysia. Then nak enjoy time dgn hubby and family sementara cuti panjang masih belum habis. Picnic, bbq, caravan, name it. Dah start kerja nanti tobat bz balik cam sebelum ni. Plannya nak gi Europe tapi tix takde yg betul2 menarik buat masa ni.

Tapi 2 assignment yg berbaki and dissertation project akan ku buat bersungguh2 juga. Cuma maybe tak sestruggle sebelum ni sampaikan kena tidur kat library. Apa2 pun, syukur tak pernah fail lagi. Ada gaks member2 yg fail and kena ambil extra subject or resubmit new assignment, which will consume another 3 weeks for them. Macik tak sanggup nak gi kelas lagi & buat balik assignment. Life must go on. Yg lepas tu biarla lepas. Kan kan?

Gemoks

Yupp, terasa sgt gemoks skrg ni.. kalau masa winter makan banyak sbb nak panaskan badan and asyik rasa lapar, sekarang dah panas pon asyik makan banyak – no change.. jeans pon dah terasa ketat. Ni mesti sebab musim BBQ and too much ice cream. Oh sinful food. Susah betul nak menolak godaan. I think it’s time to make a change before I get back to work. Takkan nak kena tempah baju kerja baru kot? As a start, these are my plan:

• On alternate day, we will go to the park (hubby dah agree). While kanak2 bermain di playground, saya perlu jogging or brisk walk selama 20minutes, at least.
• Every no-jogging day, I will walk to Uni.
• Lunch limited to 1 cup of rice and extra vege, and dinner should be before 8. After 8, kalau lapar, limit to 1 cup coffee (without milk) and 1 biscuit/fruit.
• Every morning, must do 5 minutes stretching (for targeted spots, which are too much hahaha)
• Jot down what I eat
• Drink plenty of water (2L)

My plan ni semuanya basic things and just cuba jaya, takde refer mana2 pon. So, dalam minggu ni, I will buy weighing scale sbb dah 7 bulan dah tak timbang berat, terasa sgt kejam pada diri. Jeles dengan my brother yg dah berjaya turun dari 123kg ke 100kg. Sampai tergezut tgk dia masa turun London harituh. Ni bukan semata nak kurus, just nak sihat and nak slim sket. So that tak perlu berbelanja lebih utk beli baju and seluar baru. Huhu. Wish me luck!

bersyukur

alhamdulillah.. co. baru annouce and distribute bonus for 2009 performance. suprisingly, different LOB get different amount of bonus in order to promote competition between LOBs. for me, that will be an efficient reward system if everyone is honest with their performance reporting. hopefully this new system will encourage everyone to work harder than before, less kopi2 time, gossip2 and sesi jualan langsung!

bersyukur.. tu je yg mampu terlintas kat fikiran. sepanjang kehidupan yg dah nak masuk 30an ni, tak ternilai nikmat kehidupan yg Allah bagi. baik dari kesihatan, mahupun pelajaran, kerjaya dan kewangan. alhamdulillah, marveles! paling bersyukur Allah bagi ketenangan hati, which is rasanya sangat2 bermakna. yelah, ada orang harta duit menggunung, mampu beli itu ini, tapi hati sentiasa tak tenang. ada juga yg berpangkat tinggi, tapi jiwa kacau, tak pernah tenteram dengan apa yg ada. paling takut, hasad dengki dan busuk hati, nauzubillah. biarlah hartaku tak menggunung, pangkat setakat yg ada, yang penting hati tenang, jiwa aman. macik tak kacau orang, orang tak kacau macik. semoga Allah lindungi kami (dan kamu) dari segala penyakit hati..

oh ye, back to perkara perenggan pertama (bonus), rasanya tak pernah merasa reward sebanyak ini dari co. walaupun hanya dapat 9/12, it is way more than what i expected. so, bolehlah mengcover ketiadaan bonus tahun 2010 (ulalalala). di kala member2 bz dengan perancangan belanjawan bonus, i pula masih tiada plan. tapi yg pasti, nilai bonus dah pun susut tanpa perlu ada apa2 plan (teruk kan?). online sales sgt2 menduga nafsu shopping i, yg biasanya susah nak datang anginnya. tapi bila sekali melanda, macam ribut taufan yg tanpa henti pula tu. but i think i'm still being a bit frugal here. what i spent on is mostly for future investment. memandangkan nilai pound yg menurun dan harga barangan di malaysia yg over-priced, sangatlah wajar i spend sedikit especially utk barang2 keperluan asas mcm pakaian dan kasut. tak salah kan? semoga musin sales cepat2 berakhir, kalau tidak, time break je jengah mcm2 'kedai'. sakit mata macik tgk itu semua. makin nipis poket macik taw. huhu

berbalik pada tajuk asal, harap2 dengan limpahan nikmat yg Allah bagi, bertambahlah ingatan dan amalan kami padaNya.. dah psg niat, balik Malaysia nanti nak banyakkan bersedekah pada yg kurang bernasib baik. amalan ni selalu arwah mak amalkan (Alhamdulillah), so entry ni purposely utk ingatkan diri sendiri (dan kamu, ok). sedekah tak semestinya dengan wang ringgit atau harta benda shj, sedekah tulang empat kerat tolong orang susah pun mungkin lagi banyak pahalanya jika dibuat dengan ikhlas. cthnya, tumpangkan kereta kat makcik yg sedang jalan kaki tgh panas, tolong oku lintas jalan, sedekah baju2/toys lama (yg elok) pada rumah anak yatim or saudara-mara yg kurang mampu, sedekah or quran or sejadah pada surau/masjid/ofis/sekolah. mcm2 kita boleh buat kan? sedekah doa pon boleh, sedekah nasihat pon ok. semoga dengan banyak sedekah, hati semakin tenang, happy and humble.. yg penting, kena ikhlas ok..

kalaulah kita rasa tak cukup dengan apa yg kita ada, masih ramai hamba Allah yg kurang bernasib baik dari kita dan memerlukan pertolongan. semoga sumbangan kecil kita membawa seribu makna pada kehidupan umat yg lain..

the hobby-less me

i just figured out that i'm hobbyless, which makes me feels (and looks) pathetic.. while lots of my friends love reading since they were really2 young (like Aida and Aini), i'm not.. let's look for some list:

cooking - not 100%. i love cooking (and eating!) but only for daily chores
watching tv/movies - not 100%..
gardening - no..
travelling - not yet (but i started to like it, but it's expensive)..
exercise - no (hahahaha!)..
outdoor activities/games - NO (see that big no?hahaha)..
shopping - cannot afford (is this a hobby anyway?)..
scrapbooking - no (i like it but it's expensive, again)..
baking - no (bcoz baking means eating more)
etc etc...

see, i'm pathetic! (sigh).. btw, is it OK for not having a hobby? or should i have one? my own definition of hobby is that it should not be costly and it must be fun to have, not burdening.. i think i want to have some hobbies, at least i wanna try..

and now i'm considering recycling, sewing and gardening as my new hobbies.. and the reason i'm choosing these three are because all can save money, and i want to be friendly to the environment.. one more thing, i want to consider spending quality time with my family as a hobby, can i? i found not all people/parents like to spend their time with their families, so i think this can be my hobby too, at least to my own definition :) (hehehe)

carboot-ing day

today is saturday and saturday means weekend, which means carboot day to me! i like carboot and i don't mind buying second hand things as long as they're clean and good. but i'm not yet a carboot-lover as i don't mind not going to carboot. but if i did go, i'm surely excited with the outcome! :)

and today, we went to Dunchurch's carboot (if i'm not mistaken), a bit far from the usual one. it was huge, with lots and lots of local carbooters. we went a bit late, hoping to get the last minute bargain, which means much much lower prices. and luckily, we did grab some things for really really cheap price. plus, kind carbooters gave 2 brand new big teddies to Aisya & Faris, although i only pay 50pence for what i bought from them. summary of what i've got today:

claire's hair clips and scrunchies - 1.00
toys (fishing toy, puzzle, 3 superheroes, block letters, dinasour) - 2.70
power ranges school bag - 0.50
brand new sauce pot - 4.00
crystal-glass tableware (2 serving bowls, 1 cake plate, 4 small bowls) - 3.00
men's jacket - 1.00
kids' clothes (Next & Baby Gap) - 1.00
food savers (1 Tupperware & 8 others) - 1.50
Diadora shoes - 0.50
NY yankees cap - 0.50
bob the builder water bottle - 0.10
parking - 1.00

total = 16.80pound, which is equivalent to RM84 + priceless satisfaction!

i'm surely gonna miss this weekly event after going back to Malaysia. what i admired the most is that these carbooters really took good care of their clothes and things. especially the toys and books! maybe because they have high purchasing power, which means they can buy things at really2 cheap price with their pound income.. plus, they get a lot of new gifts every year during christmas. so, they dont bother to give away their things at cheap prices. some just sell for fun!

i doubt this will happen in Malaysia. with RM wages, we can't buy so many things, and can rarely do shopping, especially for branded things.. and even if we did, we will wear and use them until worn or broken. and i think, even if we have the chance to re-sell our things, we might opt to donate to those in needs rather than selling it..

i think i will enjoy my carboot-ing weekends while i am here.. :P

Pre-Easter Holiday ~ Cornwall

break sekejap dari project literature review.. teringat2 last week pergi caravan vacation with hubby, kiddos, zamie & shina.. sungguh2 relieved drpd assignment yg bertambun2! siap tak tidur pun pagi nak pergi cornwall sbb nak kena submit assignment by 9am.. hihi (always the last minute.com) hoping to have Euro vacation pulak next time.. walaupun ditenggelami dissertation work, holiday tetap holiday! hehe

day 2 - newquay, cornwall

day 3 - land's end, cornwall

day 3 - minarch theatre, land's end

day 4 - on the way to eden's project

eden's project - tropical biome

mediteranean biome

eksiden - faris tersembam dalam shuttle bus

day 4 - bye2

the implant and the mood-less

(gambar di sebelah adalah hiasan semata2 dan tiada kaitan dgn entry ini)

2-3 hari ni rasa teramatlah tak ada mood utk blajar. cemana nih? assignment nak kena siap cepat before cuti2 easter. adakah terkesan dek pemakaian implant? uh uh

oh ye. actually lenganku baru dipasang benda asing bernama implanon 2 hari lepas. saja gatal nak cuba, pastu masa nurse tgh masukkan kat lengan, rasa nyesal tak sudah sbb sakit. huhuhu. actually takdela sakit sgt, but ngeri gak la procedure tu. kat sini free jer pakai contraception, not sure semua jenis free or ada yg kena bayar. maybe yg terlebih advance ada kena bayar. apa2 pun, daku perlukan keselamatan terjamin selama kat sini. before this i'm on pills but biasala, asyik terlupa.

so, setelah bertanya kakak2 yg dah expert bab2 ni, ku gagahkan diri utk mencuba. hu hu. so far tak penah nampak mak buyong kat library ke, kelas ke. so, tanakla jadi sejarah kat sini, dahla blajar pun setahun je. hi hi

kembali kepada moodless, actually rasa exhausted dgn assignment berderet nih. letih bab kena baca journal. muak sgt2 dah. so, pagi tadi masa tgh moodless tu, hati terdetik nak pegi shopping kat town koboi coventry. almaklumla, stok baju pon dah tahap nazak dah. asyik pakai baju sama je gi lib hari2. bosan2. setelah berkira2, rasanya kalau pakai baju baru, maybe bleh dapat mood utk blaja. hohoho (alasan utk shopping)

so, tangkapan hari ni, 3 helai blouse & 2 cardigan.. cardi yg ada pun dah berbulu, so it deserves a change. teringin nak beli baju2 spring yg berbunga bagai, tapi mcm tak banyak yg murah. tak kesahla, yg penting ada persalinan baru utk musim bunga. walaupun bajuku takde bunga, hatiku tetap berbunga2 ok :P

tak percaya?

i am supposed to struggle with my 6th assignment essay by now. but i think it's a worth 5minutes break to make this note, at least to myself..

alhamdulillah, i've been working with the co. for 7 years by now. and i've been granted scholarship twice already by the co. again and again, alhamdulillah. for the past years, i've been working hard, at least to my own standard. but every time the evaluation result came out, i didn't get what i thought i should. but usually, i'll tell my little heart "it's ok, your time will come. maybe u need to work harder and just be patient"..

and usually it turned out ok with me, not until my 6th year's evaluation, which i thought i really deserve to get more than i got. i cried. i sulked. i asked myself "what's wrong with me?". everytime i did a good job, they pat my back. but when it's evaluation time, i'm no more than average. my heart broke and i went to see the bosses. my boss calmed me down. she told me to be patient. she said, insyallah, my rezeki will come.

then, i thought maybe i should take a career break to regain my motivation and passion to work. and alhamdulillah, after series of attempts, now i'm here! it was an enjoyable career break with piles of assignment :). and for 2009, i didn't expect superb result. i just want to be treated fairly, that's all.

but today, my boss emailed me and broke the happy news! it really makes my day. and now on, i'll be on the right track again. after school, i'll work harder and will make the co. proud of having me, at least to my own thot! :) haahahahaha


i'm so jumping now!
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and still jumping! toing! toing!
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