Tuesday, March 29, 2005

>> about Aisya <<

2 days ago, hubby and I noticed a few improvements in our little Aisya..

1st, scary but funny, Aisya has learnt to make a non-stopping monster-like sound.. and i really love to immitate whatever she did, and make her staring at me wondering why her mom is acting just like a baby.. ngeee.. i think i should record and play it here..

2nd, so far her solid-food eating session went on smoothly.. and she kind of love the Gerber plain rice a lot! when i say "Aisya, open the hangar.. Aaaa.." as if to instuct her to open her mouth, she will smile widely & i will hurriedly feed her with a spoonful-Gerber-rice.. ngeh ngeh.. she will swallow it hardly, but it is a great success in the end.. she swallow most of it without a mess!! clever Aisya.. mommy is so happy dear!! =) mommy will train daddy to feed you soon.. (as a preparation to leave Aisya with her papa later on >> when I have to go for TMW teambuiding course for 3 days @ Bagan Lalang!! uhh.. bored..)

3rd, Aisya could rolled from back to front & vice-versa again and again without our help!! Even Tok Cik is so suprised with her improvement.. she weigh a lot now & don't want to lie on her back anymore.. bored, i guess.. but uhhh.. mommy's hand is gaining muscle.. (erkk.. but unnoticed yet.. maybe still covered by the fat!! hihi) she can hold her head straight up and pretend to fall to her side again and again thus making us panic most of the time.. errghh.. just wait until she could crawl.. UWAAAaaaa!!!!!

tired? yupp!!.. but i think this is the most happiest moment since our marriage.. having a beautiful little baby really cheers up our relationship.. her coos, gurgles & her laugh really2 ease the tense we had at work.. what a miracle a baby could bring to your life.. (",)

Thursday, March 24, 2005

..rindu..

hari ni lambat sket balik.. hubby ada kerja tak siap.. so, kenala lepak dulu kat ofis.. jam dah pukul 710pm.. hmm.. lambat lagi ambik Aisya harini.. siann dier.. tapi nak buat camane.. rezeki kami mcm ni..

duduk sorang2 kat ofis ni buat jiwa aku rasa sentimental.. rasa rindu sangat pada seseorang.. seseorang yg dah lama aku tak tatap wajahnya.. seseorang yg tak sempat bermain dgn cucu sulungnye.. wajahnya setenang air di kali.. wajahnya tak pernah resah.. wajahnya sentiasa tersenyum, walaupun di bahunya beban yg menggunung.. dan setiap kali aku teringatkannya, hati pasti sayu.. dan bukan aku seorang yg rindukannya.. airmataku mengalir laju... makin aku tahan, makin banyak yg tumpah.. hmm.. susah utk aku describe perasaan ni.. dan sejak akhir2 ni, aku slalu rasa macam ni.. kakak & adik2ku pon sama.. 2 hari lepas masing2 sms aku beritahu yg mereka sangat rindukannya.. rindukan mak.. sayunyer rasa..

kadang2 aku bertanya sendiri.. kenapa mak pergi terlalu awal.. tapi itu semua kuasa Allah.. Dia yg menjadikan mak.. Dia jugalah yg memanggil mak kembali padaNya.. itu hak Allah.. dan tak siapa boleh persoalkannya.. cepat atau lambat.. tua atau muda.. hanya Allah yg tahu ajal hambanya.. tapi kalau mak masih hidup.. mungkin hidup mak dah tak sesempurna dulu.. mungkin mak akan terbaring saja atas katil, siapa tahu? mungkin mak perlu bergantung kepada org lain utk meneruskan kehidupan sehariannya.. wallahualam..

mak sempat bertahan 2 tahun sejak dia mula2 mendapat cancer.. dan dalam 2 tahun itu, aku nampak hidup mak lebih bermakna.. mak sempat khatam Quran beberapa kali.. mak sempat berbudi pada ramai kawan2nya.. mak sempat buat apa yg dihajatkan sebelum ni.. mak redha dgn penyakitnya.. aku sangat2 kagum dengan mak.. dia berusaha melawan cancer, sampaikan fizikalnya sikit pon tak menampakkan yg dia menghidap cancer.. kalau org lain pergi treatment dgn wajah muram, mak pergi dgn wangi2an & senyuman.. pembedahan.. kemoterapi.. radioterapi.. sebut je apa jenis treatment.. semuanya dia dah go thru.. mungkin sbb tu Allah memanggilnya kembali.. 2 thn mak menderita, tapi tak pernah sekalipun dia merungut.. dari breast cancer, ke paru2 & akhirnya ke otak, tak pernah sekali pon aku dengar mak mengeluh.. mak sentiasa ceria sbb dia tak nak anak2nya risau.. mak masih gigih pergi bekerja sbb fikirkan anak2nya perlukan duit yg banyak.. mak tak pernah murung sbb baginya setiap dugaan yg Allah beri pasti ada hikmahnya.. semakin dia sakit, semakin rapat hubungannya dengan Yang Maha Pencipta..

kadang2 aku rasa seolah2 mak masih hidup.. cuma aku tak dapat nak berhubung terus dengannya.. tak dapat nak sentuh jasadnya.. hmm.. sbb tulah aku semakin rindukannya.. rindu sangat nak peluk erat2.. cium pipi & dahinya.. cabut uban2 gatal.. sapu losyen pada tumitnya.. tidur atas ribaannya.. ironkan baju2nya.. jalan berpegangan tangan masa gi shopping.. masak sama2.. call hari2.. borak2.. .. ..

.. rindunya...

belajarlah menghargai orang yang kita sayang selagi berpeluang.. kerana mati tak mengenal usia.. ingatlah, rasa rindu pada yang tiada sangatlah perit.. dan rindu itu tak akan pudar buat selama-lamanya..

by Hijjaz

Rindu itu adalah
Anugerah dari Allah
Insan yang berhati nurani
Punyai rasa rindu

Rindu pada kedamaian
Rindu pada ketenangan
Rindukan kesejahteraan
Dan juga kebahgiaan

Orang-orang bertaqwa
Rindu akan kebenaran
Kejujuran dan keikhlasan
Keredhaan Tuhannya

Orang mukmin merindukan
Anak-anak yang soleh
Isteri-isteri yang solehah
Keluarga bahagia

Para pencinta kebenaran
Rindukan suasana
Masyarakat yang terjalin
Aman dan sejahtera

Merindukan tertegaknya
Kalimah allah di muka bumi
Dan dalam merindukan
Keampunan Tuhannya

Dan seluruh umat itu
Merindukan cahaya
Yang menyinari kehidupan
Rindu kepada Tuhan

Saturday, March 19, 2005

oh dear little princess!!

Aisya now dah pandai buat amuk.. lambat sket je kasi susu dia start nangis dgn nada sedih & teresak2.. kuat lak tuh.. satu apartment dengar tgh2 malam.. malu seh.. baru sorang anak.. hehe.. she is really good at making her mama+papa turn panic.. isk isk..

last night, after going back home from the nursery, i put Aisya on her mattress.. then baru je pusing kejap dia dah tergolek atas carpet.. huh.. cepat betul dia pusing.. then tak sampai 3 minit dia dah start buat amuk nye.. uhh.. ditendang2 nye kaki sampai terangkat2 bontot.. siap boleh bergerak ke depan lagi... hehe.. lagak macam dah nak merangkak je.. padahal last week baru je start meniarap.. cemane nih? takkan dah kene beli pagar kot?

nampak gaya kalau nak dia cepat merangkak, kenala buat dia ngamuk slalu..

>> solid food in the move - trial edition

i'm planning to start giving Aisya some solid food this weekend.. maybe some rice cereal available at the mart.. if she swallows successfully, then soon i'll try making her meal by myself.. now i'm still searching for the best recipe for her age.. hihi.. any suggestion?
missing those sleepless days.. rasa cam tak caya jer Aisya dah
nak masuk 5 bln.. =)

Thursday, March 17, 2005

lamenyer tak update.. ngeh ngeh

rasa cam dah lama gile tak update blog ni.. sampaikan shoutbox & all links pon dah hilang ntah ke mana.. hehe..

09-March-05
Alhamdulillah.. my x-schollmate + x-coursemate + x-housemate, Pn Muhaini selamat melahirkan anak lelaki ke-2nye pd jam 8.58pm.. namanya Muhammad Aiman.. semoga dgn kehadiran Aiman bertambah lagi la team bola raudhah30.. hehe

meniarap? huh.. tak disangka2 Aisya dah boleh meniarap dgn sendirinye.. before this kena mama or papa assist.. time kitorang tak tgk la dia meniarap pon.. sem baik tak terguling2.. suke sangat dia sampai meleleh2 air liur.. at last dia tidur sambil meniarap.. bila mama pusing terlentang dia meniarap balik.. huh.. suka ati Aisya la.. hihi.. congrats sayang for your new skill!!

12-March-05
pagi2 lagi rasa excited sangat.. tak sabar2 nak gi majlis akad nikah Gna, my bestfriend a.k.a anakanda Gna.. hehe.. siap pakai baju + tudung baru lagi.. =) Gna dah mcm adik-beradik sendiri.. masa wedding aku dulu, Gna sanggup ambik cuti seminggu ikut aku balik kampung utk tolong aku buat persiapan.. aku plak tak dapat nak tolong dia sangat sbb maklumla dah ada anak ni susah sket nak gerak sana sini.. just datang2 rumah Gna tanya khabar je.. last buat lawatan pra-perkahwinan ke rumah Gna hari Khamis lepas, 2 hari sebelum akad nikah.. hmmpp.. since mak's departure, i think our friendship has becoming much2 closer.. family Gna pon dah macam family sendiri.. each time pegi rumah Gna aku akan peluk mak Gna puas2, just like I did to my mom.. (believe me.. i'm in tears now.. sobbs..) pastu nanti mak Gna ajak dinner kat sana.. and I love her cook so much!! nyum! nyum!

continue cerita wedding Gna..

aku, hubby & baby sampai kat Shah Alam quite lambat.. so kitorang decide utk terus pegi Masjid Negeri, tempat Gna & tunangnya Arai akan diakad.. sampai masjid, semua org dah berkumpul tapi belum masuk bilik VIP lagi.. perasaan aku time tu tak terkata.. happy sangat2 tgk Gna dlm baju pengantin yg cantik.. miss plak masa kawen dulu.. hehe.. berangan kejaps..

Alhamdulillah.. majlis berjalan dgn lancar.. Azrina selamat diijabkabulkan dgn Azraie dgn satu lafaz.. yg syahdunya, Abah Gna sendiri yg nikahkan diorang.. Gna looks so happy!! and I am happy for her too.. tahniah anakanda Gna.. moga jadi isteri solehah & ibu yg penyayang.. nak kembar kay!! hehe..

13-March-05
aku, hubby & baby pergi ke kenduri Gna a bit late.. sbb Aisya meragam kat rumah.. sesampai kat rumah Gna, ramai kawan2 dah balik.. upset la jugak.. tapi still laa a few yg tinggal.. dpt jumpa kengkawan yg dah lama menghilang.. bila dah ramai2 tuh riuhlaa kami kat bawah khemah.. ibu2 mengandung & tak kurang ibu2 yg bawa anak2 yg sebaya je nampaknye.. semua lahir tahun 2004.. kire nanti dah besar sebaya jela anak2 kitorang ni.. tak lama pon kat rumah Gna sbb Aisya takleh nak tido.. cuaca panas sangat.. kitorang balik rumah around 415.. sempat bergambar sket je ngan pengantin..

"Selamat Pengantin Baru buat Azrina & Azraie.. semoga berkekalan hingga ke akhir hayat.. "
drpd:
Mommy Julie + Daddy Chot
&
Baby Aisya

Wednesday, March 02, 2005

Awww!!! Sakitnye!!!

huh.. yesterday was a very unforgettable day.. I went to see the doctor at Klinik Zarif here in Menara Telekom to check for my 'cagu' at my right foot.. to be exact, at the ibu jari kaki.. (err.. do u know what is 'cagu' anyway?? when the nail get stuck in the flesh!! aww!!) actually i've been suffering the 'cagu' for almost 10 months!! really bad, uh? it started during my pregnancy last year and i guess i put on weight too much!! hehe.. (",)

that's the history.. so i went to the doctor with a dup dap dup dap in my heart.. noticing there's nobody in the clinic.. huh.. so many butterflies in the stomach! I told the doctor about the poor toe.. (actually i've seen her before for the same problem but she advice me to apply the cream she gave first.. unfortunately it does'nt work well..)

me: Dr, ni pasal cagu hari tu.. tak baik2 lagi..
Dr: emm.. so, nak kerat kuku la ni?
me: err.. ha ah.. (uwaa!! i finally say yes?) ada bius tak?
Dr: mestila ada.. (smiling) jom ikut saya..

i walked behind her to the 'OT'..

Dr: juliana, baring sini..
me: ok..

then i lied on the bed.. patiently waiting..

Dr: saya akan bius dulu kaki u.. kalau tak bius mmg sakit sangat2.. ni nak cucuk bius ni sakit sikit tau..
me: ok.. (speechless)

suddenly.. arghhh.. uhh.. errkk.. uwaaa!! sakitnyerrr!! this is not sikit!!

me: aduh! aduh! sakitnye..

then she rubs my ibu jari.. i think that's to make sure the ubat bius spread over the foot.. her assistance suddenly came in..

Asst: cagu ke? nak potong ye Dr? pakai pisau?
Dr: ha ah..

O My God!.. kecut perut ERA when i heard the word pisau.. then the 'operation' started.. my breathing is out of control.. i breath in sooo deeply & breath out sooo loudly.. it's reaaaally painful when the Dr started digging out the nail from the flesh & cutting it!! again & again!!

me: sakitnye.. aduh! (weaning softly<-- to control 'macho'.. hehe)
Dr: kalau kat kaki mmg sakit sikit walaupun dah bius..
me: uhh.. oic..

I swear i shall never let the cagu to appear again after this.. the 'operation' ended after 15 minutes.. the Dr wrap my ibu jari tightly so that it will lessen the pain.. she gave me some painkiller & pills to reduce the swollen..

me: baper lama buleh baik ni Dr? (I'm able to calm down already.. hehe)
Dr: ermm.. 3 hari dah baik biasanya
me: ni ubat ni bile buleh start makan?
Dr: pukul 6ptg nanti u start ambik, ok? then esok datang balik utk cuci luka tu..
me: ok.. thanks Dr.. (smiling in pain..)

I walked out the clinic with a wrapped toe.. hehe.. it looks funny & I have to walk carefully, avoiding bumping into anything in front of me (which always happen to me <-- maybe this is how the cagu appear.. ngeh ngeh ngeh..)

And today i need to see the Dr again to clean that wound.. hehe.. no more pain!! =)