Thank you Allah..

to make people love you, you must love them first.. no rocket science explanation for that.. it's just karma, i guess..

Who should I give my love to?
My respect and my honor to
Who should I pay good mind to?
After Allah
And Rasulullah

Comes your mother
Who next? Your mother
Who next? Your mother
And then your father

Cause who used to hold you
And clean you and clothes you
Who used to feed you?
And always be with you
When you were sick
Stay up all night
Holding you tight
That's right no other
Your mother (My mother)

Who should I take good care of?
Giving all my love
Who should I think most of?
After Allah
And Rasulullah

Comes your mother
Who next? Your mother
Who next? Your mother
And then your father

Cause who used to hear you
Before you could talk
Who used to hold you?
Before you could walk
And when you fell who picked you up
Clean your cut
No one but your mother
My mother

Who should I stay right close to?
Listen most to
Never say no to
After Allah
And Rasulullah

Comes your mother
Who next? Your mother
Who next? Your mother
And then your father

Cause who used to hug you
And buy you new clothes
Comb your hair
And blow your nose
And when you cry
Who wiped your tears?
Knows your fears
Who really cares?
My mother

Say Alhamdulillah
Thank you Allah
Thank you Allah
For my mother

Khas buat mak..

Nombor 18 sangatlah sinonim dgn diri mak kan? 18 January harijadi mak. 18 April pula hari pertama mak masuk kerja. Dan secara tak sengaja, 18 December wedding anniversary mak. Julie still ingat hari2 penting mak, insyallah.

Dan hari ni, hari lahir mak yg ke 58. Happy Birthday mak. Julie tahu kita berdua tersangat jauh, sangat2 jauh. Jauh yang kalau Julie ada duit berjuta pun Julie tak dapat nak jumpa mak lagi. Tapi Julie nak mak tahu, Julie sangat rindukan mak. Rindu sangat2 nak peluk cium mak. Rindu sampai rasa nak pecah dada ni. Julie jeles tgk Fairoz call mak dia. Yela, walaupun mak dia pun mak Julie juga, tapi tak sama kan dgn mak sendiri? Dengan mak, nak tidur bawak ketiak pun takpe kan? And mak suka sangat bila Julie offer diri utk cabut ubat2 gatal mak. It was one of my favourite leisure activity. hehe.

Teringat lagi masa mengandungkan Aisya, mak bagi Julie mandi laut kat PD sbb teringin sangat2. It was like 3 weeks before you left us. And teringat lagi mak usap2 perut Julie & kita main teka2 jantina lelaki ke perempuan. Mak ingat lagi tak lepas mak chemoteraphy, kita gi jalan ke KB Mall sbb mak bosan duduk rumah. Then Julie belikan gelang jade utk mak. Orang kedai tu tanya mak ada sakit apa2 ke nak pakai jade? Then mak senyum je kat dia. So sweet.

Mak ingat tak mak marah Julie sbb hari2 call mak? Mak cakap Julie takde keje kat ofis. Hehe. Klakar. Mana boleh takde keje. Lepas mak takde, the day Julie masuk ofis, Julie terus burst into tears sbb Julie tak sengaja terangkat gagang telefon utk call mak. Sedih sangat. Hari2 selepas mak takde, anak2 mak semuanya rapuh. Seriously. Ambil masa 2-3 tahun jugala nak heal..

Tapi mak jangan risau, insyallah anak2 mak sekarang dah semakin kuat. It has been 6 years kan? Nak tahu mcmana kitorang buat? Hmm.. well, kitorang anggap mak masih ada around us. Cumanya kitorang tak dapat nak jumpa mak je. You’re always in our heart. We always remind ourselves with the thought that you always gave. We always try to be optimist in whatever we do, just like you. And we always keep in touch with each other. That’s how we cope with our lost. And mak nak tahu tak, kitorang paling takut hilang kenangan2 dengan mak. So everytime meet up, kitorang akan cerita balik kisah2 lama. Thinking of you makes all of us smile, giggle and sometimes laugh out loud. Even though deep inside our hearts, only Allah knows how miserable we are.

Sekarang cita2 mak nak Julie sambung Masters insyallah dah on the right track. Kalau dulu mak gi US, now Julie kat UK. Tapi kan, Malaysia juga paling best kan? Main banjir lagi best dari main snow. Hoho. Teringat time kecik2 dulu tiap2 tahun kita main banjir. Then makan breakfast pulut dgn ikan kering. Best ever!

Oklah mak. I need to sleep now. Esok ada kelas. Cucu2 mak yg comel2 dua2 dah tidur. Semoga mak merindui anak-anak mak.. Semoga mak ditempatkan dengan orang2 yang beriman.. Semoga kita ketemu disana.. Happy birthday again.. I love you mak.. Al-fatihah..

kalau salji katakan salji..

bila cuaca amat sejuk dan perut amat kenyang, diri ini terasa amat malas. i just had my first ever lasagna for dinner! yummy but a bit salty :P tu pon pakai leftover kuah spaghetti yg cuma tinggal semangkuk. but it's ok for a start, will try a better version soon..

oh ye, last 2 days i roasted a baby chicken ala2 jamie oliver gitu. also my first attempt menggolek seekor ayam. hehe. but it tasted out a bit sour due to too much lemon juice that i put in. well, i'll improvise it next time as hubby doesn't like lemony-taste. i think i'm gonna put honey instead and less garlic too. yummy! so, what's next? rasanya nak try bihun ladna pulak kot (dah tahap bosan mkn nasi hari2.. hihi :)

oopss, sori gaya terk*ngk*ng

3 bulan yang lalu..

3 bulan yang lalu..
aku masih di sana..
tempat lahir yang ku rindu..

3 bulan yang lalu..
aku masih tak pasti..
inikah jalan pilihanku..

tapi kini..
aku nekad dan yakin..
gulungan ijazah yang kucari..

dan kini..
aku tidak lagi ragu..
bumi Malaysia tetap di hati..

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(nota kaki:- tiba2 terasa nak karang sajak di kala amat mengantuk membuat assignment.. hohoho =)

puasa 'update'

lamerrrrrrrrrrrrrrr sangat tak update blog nih. feel sorry utk diri sendiri, huhu. i'm bz dgn mcm2 ok. just want to update some pictures of the loved ones. semenjak diorang sampai dah tak berupdate langsung. almaklumla kan. dah takyah rindu2. hehe

so far aisya dah masuk school, faris stay rumah dgn papa dia. aisya is doing great! alhamdulillah senang nak settle down kat sekolah. but unluckily nyer dia kena masuk foundation class sbb dia lahir 31st oct. kelas kat sini semua start early september. so kiranya aisya ni budak tua dlm kelas dia la. mostly budak2 4 yrs +, dia 5yrs +. blaja maths pon baru kira numbers sampai 10. so, papa dia kena pulun sketla buat kelas tambahan kat rumah. but tidakla memaksa dia utk blaja pon. yg penting dia enjoy pegi sekolah. :)

ok. itu saja update kali ini. ada assignment perlu dibuat. bila la boleh gi jalan2. sedih2. insyaallah next week cuti krismas nak ke manchester rumah yat & beny. enjoy!

at transport museum, coventry

aisya's 1st day to school

faris 1st day sending kakak to school

outing by bus.. sian diorang, sejuk

faris wif favorite sis Mariam

Aisya & friends (adik2) at jamuan hari raya korban

faris & papa dia

aisya & our 'new' cute ride

aisya pose for aunty2 di malaysia

aisya wif her "writing cup"

piasa pusingan ni, esok nak kena pulangkan

aisya ready to school, posing in our kitchen

cheers!

gerammm..

dah lama tak update sini. nak kata bz tak sgt, bz jalan & shopping jela kot. kelas next week baru start. supposedly dah kena cari tajuk project but tak buat pape lagi. takutnye, tapi takde mood lagi sbb masih tak settle down betul2 lagi (alasan). hoho

actually tgh geram kat satu agent rumah ni. rumah dah elok2 booked with booking fees pon bleh bagi kat org. dia cakap landlord yg sewakan. geram betul. rasa mcm diperkotak-katik je. i know i'm not white but i'm still a human & i've got feelings too ok. sejak sampai uk saya tak rasa pon mcm nak nangis sbb homesick or whatnots, but smlm lepas agent tu bagitahu rumah dah tak ada, terus berderai airmata. my hubby & kiddos are coming lagi 2 weeks and i have no shelter for them yet. rasa hopeless sangat. and rasa cam nak gugur jantung macik. sbb tula org cakap "kita hanya merancang"...

bila pk balik, maybe ni dugaan or maybe ni balasan. bila duduk negeri org, terasa kerdil sgt diri ni. maybe masa kat malaysia semuanya ambil mudah sbb semuanya senang, semuanya mewah. bab bersyukur pon ambil mudah. maybe Allah nak tunjuk, ada masa kita di atas, ada masa kita di bawah. ya Allah, takutnya saya. kak balkis suruh saya sabar & redha. mungkin rumah tu bukan terbaik utk saya & family. kebetulan smlm ada newspaper free, so kak balkis terus belek newspaper column house to rent. and suprisingly, tetiba jumpa iklan rumah yg 1st skali kitorang view awal bulan hari tu. rumah tu patutnya dah let by tapi tetiba available balik. heran. mungkin ni jodoh utk saya? mungkin kan?

cepat2 kak balkis call house agent (yg lain) minta viewing. and cepat pula dapat feedback, terus boleh view ptg smlm juga. slalu2nya susah nak schedule appointment dgn mereka2 ni. since i dont have much choice, eventhough mahal sedikit if compared to the size, i really feel i need to take this house. so pagi tadi, awal2 pagi lagi kak balkis & me pegi town office house agent tu. fuhh, alhamdulillah takde org grab lagi. i pay the booking fees and pray hard hoping that the credit check process wont take long & succeed. takutnya saya ya Allah. semoga Kau permudahkan segala urusan hambamu ini. ameen.

moral of the story, kita hanya mampu merancang, Allah juga yg menentukan segala perjalanan & keputusan dlm hidup kita ni. so, jgnlah kita lupa, alpa, riak & sombong dgn apa yg kita ada. ada masa kita di atas, and ada masa kita boleh tersungkur. beringat2lah ye..

p/s: tahniah to my ex hosmet yg khabarnya sudah conceive lagi.. jaga diri baik2 ok? :)

p/s2: sekadar gambar hiasan penyejuk hati.

hujan emas di negeri orang..

hari ni masuk hari ke-14 saya di bumi org putih ini. it means dah 2 minggu saya kesejukan kat sini. huhu. autumn is beautiful i must say, but it's quite chilling too. harap2 saya get used to this chillingness a.s.a.p. oh ye, saya masih menumpang di rumah kak balkis. sgt2 terhutang budi dgn dia, rasanya tak terbalas budi baik dia. thanks yer kak balkis, semoga Allah membalas budi baik kak balkis sekeluarga dengan balasan yg terbaik!

ramai kwn2 tanya, saya dah settle down ke belum. saya jawab belum sepenuhnya. yg dah settle hanyalah buka bank account, register course dan booking rumah. yg belum settle masih berjela2; duit elaun belum dapat, kereta belum beli, rumah belum boleh masuk & family belum boleh datang. and banyak lagi kot.

the most miserable part is hubby & kiddos yg sepatutnya datang on 16 Oct kena reschedule ke 6 Nov, gara2 susah nak dapat rumah yg dekat dgn uni. biarlah apa org cakap, memilih or whatsoever, saya tetap nak rumah dekat dgn uni sbb niat saya nak blaja dan kelas saya 9am - 630pm 5 hari seminggu on selected weeks, and saya ada anak2 & hubby yg perlu diisi perut mereka. plus saya tak boleh datang lewat ke kelas, so punctuality is very crucial. furthermore, kelas saya hanya 20 org. mmg tersangatlah obvious kalau datang lewat, penaltynya pula, either deduct 3 marks atau tak boleh masuk kelas langsung!

alhamdulillah, the house yg saya delisted awal2 rupa2nya yg itulah yg paling saya berkenan, furnished, 10mins walk to Tesco dan 20mins walk to faculty. and that house hanya boleh masuk early november. hopefully tak ada masalah dgn application. Ya Allah, mudahkanlan urusan hambamu ini. and utk keselesaan hubby & anak2, saya minta hubby tunda flight date diorang sbb better bersusah2 di tempat sendiri drpd di tempat org. it won't be that easy, huhu (sila rujuk tajuk).

saya harap once hubby & anak2 sampai, saya kembali ceria inside out. hari2 saya rindukan mereka, nasib baik kak balkis ada ramai anak yg buatkan hari2 saya tak sunyi. if not, mau saya nangis hari2 kat sini. keluar air mata beku la jawabnya.

oklah, gtg. hope i will blog again soon!

saya rindu mereka..

my 1st day to school

hari ini hari pertama saya ke sekolah utk mendengar taklimat. kelas belum bermula, so kami masih boleh relax2. cuaca baik, tak sejuk & tak panas. just the way i love it.

dlm faculty WMG saya, dlm ramai2 org yg ambik MSC tu, hanya saya & cik Zamie yg bertudung. bila saya katakan hanya kami bertudung, saya bukan maksudkan hanya kami yg islam. mungkin ramai yg islam, tapi yg pastinya hanya kami berdua bertudung dan hanya kami melayu dari Malaysia. tak tahulah kalau2 ada lelaki melayu yg kami tak nampak. bayangkan, tahun lepas hanya cik Mar sahaja yg dari Malaysia dlm coursenya. unik kan?

harapan kami, tahun2 akan datang akan berlipat ganda warga Malaysia seperti kami di sini. harapan saya, agar saya dapat belajar bersungguh2 di sini utk menimba ilmu. semoga Allah permudahkan perjalanan saya. ameen.

alhamdulillah i arrived safely..

today is the 3rd day i'm in canley, coventry. i don't how to express my utmost gratitude to kak balkis, she's the one who's taken care of me since my arrival here. with her 6 kids around (imagine that), i really feel at home. thanks to mar too, who's helped me & zamie settling down, assist us in university registration, opening bank account, collecting our student id, shopping and the list goes on.

so far, i'm still adjusting my hearing to how the local people speak. sometimes quite susah nak faham coz some people speak very fast and some have their slang. but forget about that, i'm sure i'll get used to it sooner or later. never fear to speak up kan?

actually tak tahu nak tulis apa coz takleh nak berfikir dengan aman, anak2 kak balkis tgh havoc kat blakang ni. hehe. looking at the kids make me missed my kids sooooooo much!! :( ever since i reached here, tak sempat nak cakap phone dgn diorang lagi. tapi dgn hubby of course dahla. itu wajib. rindu sgt aisya & faris, memang saya takkan tahan dok sini for 1 year without them around. tak sabar nak fetch diorang mid oct nanti. hopefully i've settled in by then.

as of now, i need to concentrate on searching for a home to live in. i need a home coz i want my family to feel at home when they arrive here. tanaklah diorang rasa tak best nanti. i like rumah kak balkis but it's too big for our family of 4. besides i can save some money if i go for a smaller house. i've decided to get a house very near to uni & school so that i could walk to uni and hubby could walk aisya to/fro school every day. food shouldn't be much a problem here. tesco is very near and they have loads of halal meat and other foods too. kedai paki pon not far from here. mcm2 ada, even yg tak penah jumpa kat malaysia pon ada kat sini. the most important, the food here is very cheap. and that's my greatest fear!! hahaha

and here's some pictures i've taken since i arrived here. the weather is sooooo cold that i need to wear 3 clothes at a time..

wif zamie, baru lepas register kat uni..

it's a bright sunny day but gile sejuks!

tgh scout for house with zamie..

with kak balkis yg budiman..

with mar yg budiman juga..

will blog again very soon!