tak percaya?

i am supposed to struggle with my 6th assignment essay by now. but i think it's a worth 5minutes break to make this note, at least to myself..

alhamdulillah, i've been working with the co. for 7 years by now. and i've been granted scholarship twice already by the co. again and again, alhamdulillah. for the past years, i've been working hard, at least to my own standard. but every time the evaluation result came out, i didn't get what i thought i should. but usually, i'll tell my little heart "it's ok, your time will come. maybe u need to work harder and just be patient"..

and usually it turned out ok with me, not until my 6th year's evaluation, which i thought i really deserve to get more than i got. i cried. i sulked. i asked myself "what's wrong with me?". everytime i did a good job, they pat my back. but when it's evaluation time, i'm no more than average. my heart broke and i went to see the bosses. my boss calmed me down. she told me to be patient. she said, insyallah, my rezeki will come.

then, i thought maybe i should take a career break to regain my motivation and passion to work. and alhamdulillah, after series of attempts, now i'm here! it was an enjoyable career break with piles of assignment :). and for 2009, i didn't expect superb result. i just want to be treated fairly, that's all.

but today, my boss emailed me and broke the happy news! it really makes my day. and now on, i'll be on the right track again. after school, i'll work harder and will make the co. proud of having me, at least to my own thot! :) haahahahaha


i'm so jumping now!
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and still jumping! toing! toing!
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