Because you loved me..

this is the song i like so much by Celine Dion.. my sister Nurul once wrote this song to our Mom on her birthday and I was so touched by it..

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I’ll be forever thankful baby
You’re the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You’re the one who saw me through through it all

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn’t speak
You were my eyes when I couldn’t see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn’t reach
You gave me faith ’coz you believed
I’m everything I am
Because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I’m grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don’t know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn’t speak
You were my eyes when I couldn’t see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn’t reach
You gave me faith ’coz you believed
I’m everything I am
Because you loved me

You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You’ve been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn’t speak
You were my eyes when I couldn’t see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn’t reach
You gave me faith ’coz you believed
I’m everything I am
Because you loved me

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn’t speak
You were my eyes when I couldn’t see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn’t reach
You gave me faith ’coz you believed
I’m everything I am
Because you loved me

I’m everything I am
Because you loved me

from sadness to happiness.. :)

rasa dah lama benar tak update.. tahlah.. tatau nape.. sejak akhir2 ni aku slalu teringat arwah mak and all the sad things happened after she left..

14-Jan until 17-Jan.. aku demam & bengkak tonsil.. then berjangkit plak ke hubby.. sian Aisya.. mama & papa tak larat nak jaga dia so terpaksala hantar nursery eventhough on Saturday.. sedih sangat rasa tapi apa boleh buat.. takut gak demam berjangkit kat dia.. tapi Alhamdulillah.. Aisya sihat as usual..

18-Jan.. besday arwah mak.. i can't stop myself from crying.. crying.. & crying.. kalau mak masih ada, tahun ni umur mak 53 tahun.. still muda.. 2-3 orang bestfriend mak sms aku cakap diorang ingat besday mak & miss sangat kat arwah mak.. lagikan kawan2nya bersedih.. inikan pula anaknya.. tiap kali solat mesti aku nangis.. aku hadiahkan al-fatihah & yasin utk mak.. aku sms semua adik2 & kakakku suruh diorang buat bende yg sama.. aku suruh diorang yg bercuti kat rumah pergi ziarah kubur mak.. sayu & sebak sangat rasa sampaikan kat ofis aku takleh concentrate buat keje.. kejap2 airmata berlinangan.. ya Allah.. tabahkan hati hambamu ini utk menempuh hari2 mendatang tanpa kehadiran ibu tercinta.. dan yg paling membuatkan aku sedih bila teringatkan adik bongsuku yg akan masuk Tingkatan 4 di MRSM Pengkalan Chepa.. she's still so young to hold this burden.. semoga adik tabah.. setabah mak melawan penyakitnye..

rasa sedihku beransur pulih.. pk2 balik.. kalau aku bersedih.. adik2ku lagila sedih.. aku mesti tabah & kuat semangat sbb aku umpama pengganti mak.. aku jadi tempat diorang meluahkan perasaan & kesedihan.. tempat diorang minta pendapat tentang pelajaran.. aku tak boleh kalah pada emosi.. aku tahu Allah akan menolong kami dlm apa yg kami hajati dan dlm kesusahan.. insyallah..

25-Jan.. Selangor cuti Thaipusam.. maknanya hubby sorang cuti & aku tak.. aku pon apa lagi.. apply cuti sama la sbb kalau tak sure hubby kena hantar aku pegi keje.. so smalam kitorang pegi Alamanda Putrajaya.. since minggu lepas lagi aku request kat hubby nak pegi Alamanda sbb aku tgk kat paper Habib ada buat SALE kat situ.. rasa bersemangat gila nak beli barang kemas sbb duit hantaran aku dulu still dok simpan.. ada laa blanje beli set bilik tidur tapi aku nak laa jugak beli something yg aku boleh pakai hari2.. baru ada sentimental value.. lagipon aku rasa dgn beli something yg aku suka & dah lama dok idam2, sure akan buat aku a bit happier..

kitorang keluar rumah dlm pukul 3pm.. sampai je Alamanda, kitorang gi makan2 kat fudcot.. best jugakla sbb fudcot dia luas and tak sesak sangat.. lepas makan kitorang terus pegi ke tpt pameran Habib.. waa.. rambang mata! hubby menyokong 100% supaya aku beli 'something'.. kalau tak beli, dia nak tinggal aku sorang2 kat situ.. balik sendiri katanya.. hehe.. pilih punya pilih.. at last aku pon beli laa 'something' yg dah lama aku idamkan.. mmg murah pon harga brg kemas kat Habib bila diorang buat SALE.. kalau emas 916, less RM4 dari harga pasaran..

so, sape2 yg nak kawen or bertunang.. cepat2 laa pegi Alamanda sementara SALE ni.. Habib sini je yg SALE tau.. tpt lain SALE tapi tak byk pon dia potong.. sampai 14-Feb je.. so, still ada quite a lot of time.. tapi kalau nak byk choice, better pegi skarang sbb kalau dah dekat2 penghujung SALE tu, biasala tinggal balance2 jek..

yg bestnye, hubby sporting gile! sepanjang aku dok memilih2 tu, dia yg jagakan Aisya.. hehe..

thanks very much sayang!! i know you really2 want to make me happy! love u so much! and Aisya too for being such a good girl yesterday.. ;)

Untukmu Ibu...

Oh Ibu
Kau disiram bayu pagi
Kehilangan terasa kini
Dan kesepian

Dan aku
Bagai purnama gerhana
Di ibarat lautan kering
Tiada tempat ku layarkan
Hasrat ku ini
Masih belum sempat
Ku buktikannya kepada mu
Ibu tersayang
Ku curahkan rasa hati

Ku tatapi potret mu berulang kali
Ku renungkan kalimah yang diberi

Tuhan yang Esa
Ampuni dosa ibu
Tempatkan mereka
Di antara kekasih kekasih Mu

Oh Ibu
Kau kekasih sejati
Ku taburkan doa
Untuk mu ibu
Ampunilah dosa ku
Sejak ku dilahirkan
Hingga akhir hayat mu
Ibu...

Saat ini
Ku teruskan hidup
Tanpa bersama mu ibu

Al-fatihah utk arwah ibu tercinta..

morning chaos!

little Aisya didn't poo yesterday.. biasanya petang2 dah settle dah.. lepas makan ubat selsema dia tido dgn nyenyaknya sampaila ke pagi tadi..

the story begin..
at 3am, Aisya woke up asking for milk.. and again at 5am.. ngantuksnye mama.. then, dia tamo tido sampailaa pukul 545am.. nampak dia cam cool sket, i rushed to the kitchen to prepare for my sahur.. 5 minit siap buat sandwich telur & air nescafe & makan.. hebat tak? hehe.. dah imsak pon so kenala express..

pukul 600am, papa bangun tido & since budak Aisya nak orang pegang dia, kenalaa take turn utk bersiap gi keje.. after a while, it's papa's turn to comfort Aisya.. lain macam je nampak muka Aisya ni.. senyap je die.. i guess she will be poo-ing at anytime but i didn't tell hubby.. hehehe..

tgh bersiap2 dlm bilik tiba2 dengar hubby jerit.."busuuuukkknyerrr!!" hahaha.. and i admit that it was one of the smelliest poo she ever had! sampai satu rumah berbau.. hehe.. Aisya's mission to bully her papa has completed!

we went to work a little bit late today but alhamdulillah, we manage to arrive on time..

today's zikra..

this morning, hubby & I listened to Ustaz Wan Sohor's zikra at hits rmkl (97.2fm) as usual.. it started at 0645am and ended at 0700am.. actually we tried to make it as our daily routine.. and so far Alhamdulillah.. we did it.. =)

Ustaz's zikra is always interesting & never bored us! and this morning we only manage to listen to some part of the zikra.. he said that if we are seeking for Allah's bless for jannah, we must always ask for it.. but how?? read this doa 3 times a day and Insyallah jannah will welcome you as you wish..

"Allahumma inna nas aluka ridhaka wal jannah.Wa na'uzubika min sakhatika wan naar.."

p/s: sorry I have to write it in rumi and not in jawi.. (i'm really2 bad in writing jawi! hehe)

Ahlan-wa-sahlan 2005!!

it's already 2005.. time is leaving us too fast, right?.. and now i'm still doing the post-mortem for what I've done the whole last year..

"sigh.." reminiscing those 2004 memories hurt my heart so badly.. it will be the most memorable year in my entire life..

...

after 2 months..

pejam celik.. my dear Aisya Afiqah dah pon 2 bulan.. and maknanya my long vacation has come to the end.. uhhh.. busannyer nak masuk keje balik!! rasa cam dah berkarat sgt dah otak ni.. apa dah jadi 2 bulan lepas kat opis langsung tak ambik tahu.. hehe.. mmg seriusly bercuti.. :wink:

My love, Aisya..
and today is the 1st day nak berenggang ngan Aisya.. sobbs sobbs.. rasa berat hati sgt2 nak tinggal Aisya kat nursery.. she's still a little girl who need so much love & care.. rasa cam nak je jadi full-time housewife.. hmmpp.. tapi apa boleh buat.. kalau hubby sorang yg keje, parah laa sket.. so terpaksa laa menggagahkan diri datang keje.. :sigh:

masa hantar Aisya kat nursery pagi tadi, Aisya tenung je muka mama dia.. sampai tak berkelip.. sayu sungguh hati ini.. ntah berapa kali mama kiss Aisya.. sampai dia naik rimas kan?.. hehe.. mama & papa doa hopefully nursery jaga Aisya baik2.. kalau nenek Aisya still ada, sure nenek dgn besar hatinya nak jaga Aisya, kan?.. tapi Allah lebih sayangkan nenek.. i miss u, mom.. :(

"Aisya sayang.. sorry tau.. mama & papa terpaksa hantar Aisya kat nursery.. mama kena pergi keje utk cari duit banyak2.. baru boleh beli baju cantik2 utk Aisya" that's what i said to her before i came to work this morning.. and she smiled at me as if she agreed with me..