the implant and the mood-less

(gambar di sebelah adalah hiasan semata2 dan tiada kaitan dgn entry ini)

2-3 hari ni rasa teramatlah tak ada mood utk blajar. cemana nih? assignment nak kena siap cepat before cuti2 easter. adakah terkesan dek pemakaian implant? uh uh

oh ye. actually lenganku baru dipasang benda asing bernama implanon 2 hari lepas. saja gatal nak cuba, pastu masa nurse tgh masukkan kat lengan, rasa nyesal tak sudah sbb sakit. huhuhu. actually takdela sakit sgt, but ngeri gak la procedure tu. kat sini free jer pakai contraception, not sure semua jenis free or ada yg kena bayar. maybe yg terlebih advance ada kena bayar. apa2 pun, daku perlukan keselamatan terjamin selama kat sini. before this i'm on pills but biasala, asyik terlupa.

so, setelah bertanya kakak2 yg dah expert bab2 ni, ku gagahkan diri utk mencuba. hu hu. so far tak penah nampak mak buyong kat library ke, kelas ke. so, tanakla jadi sejarah kat sini, dahla blajar pun setahun je. hi hi

kembali kepada moodless, actually rasa exhausted dgn assignment berderet nih. letih bab kena baca journal. muak sgt2 dah. so, pagi tadi masa tgh moodless tu, hati terdetik nak pegi shopping kat town koboi coventry. almaklumla, stok baju pon dah tahap nazak dah. asyik pakai baju sama je gi lib hari2. bosan2. setelah berkira2, rasanya kalau pakai baju baru, maybe bleh dapat mood utk blaja. hohoho (alasan utk shopping)

so, tangkapan hari ni, 3 helai blouse & 2 cardigan.. cardi yg ada pun dah berbulu, so it deserves a change. teringin nak beli baju2 spring yg berbunga bagai, tapi mcm tak banyak yg murah. tak kesahla, yg penting ada persalinan baru utk musim bunga. walaupun bajuku takde bunga, hatiku tetap berbunga2 ok :P

tak percaya?

i am supposed to struggle with my 6th assignment essay by now. but i think it's a worth 5minutes break to make this note, at least to myself..

alhamdulillah, i've been working with the co. for 7 years by now. and i've been granted scholarship twice already by the co. again and again, alhamdulillah. for the past years, i've been working hard, at least to my own standard. but every time the evaluation result came out, i didn't get what i thought i should. but usually, i'll tell my little heart "it's ok, your time will come. maybe u need to work harder and just be patient"..

and usually it turned out ok with me, not until my 6th year's evaluation, which i thought i really deserve to get more than i got. i cried. i sulked. i asked myself "what's wrong with me?". everytime i did a good job, they pat my back. but when it's evaluation time, i'm no more than average. my heart broke and i went to see the bosses. my boss calmed me down. she told me to be patient. she said, insyallah, my rezeki will come.

then, i thought maybe i should take a career break to regain my motivation and passion to work. and alhamdulillah, after series of attempts, now i'm here! it was an enjoyable career break with piles of assignment :). and for 2009, i didn't expect superb result. i just want to be treated fairly, that's all.

but today, my boss emailed me and broke the happy news! it really makes my day. and now on, i'll be on the right track again. after school, i'll work harder and will make the co. proud of having me, at least to my own thot! :) haahahahaha


i'm so jumping now!
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and still jumping! toing! toing!
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