Thank you Allah..

to make people love you, you must love them first.. no rocket science explanation for that.. it's just karma, i guess..

Who should I give my love to?
My respect and my honor to
Who should I pay good mind to?
After Allah
And Rasulullah

Comes your mother
Who next? Your mother
Who next? Your mother
And then your father

Cause who used to hold you
And clean you and clothes you
Who used to feed you?
And always be with you
When you were sick
Stay up all night
Holding you tight
That's right no other
Your mother (My mother)

Who should I take good care of?
Giving all my love
Who should I think most of?
After Allah
And Rasulullah

Comes your mother
Who next? Your mother
Who next? Your mother
And then your father

Cause who used to hear you
Before you could talk
Who used to hold you?
Before you could walk
And when you fell who picked you up
Clean your cut
No one but your mother
My mother

Who should I stay right close to?
Listen most to
Never say no to
After Allah
And Rasulullah

Comes your mother
Who next? Your mother
Who next? Your mother
And then your father

Cause who used to hug you
And buy you new clothes
Comb your hair
And blow your nose
And when you cry
Who wiped your tears?
Knows your fears
Who really cares?
My mother

Say Alhamdulillah
Thank you Allah
Thank you Allah
For my mother

Khas buat mak..

Nombor 18 sangatlah sinonim dgn diri mak kan? 18 January harijadi mak. 18 April pula hari pertama mak masuk kerja. Dan secara tak sengaja, 18 December wedding anniversary mak. Julie still ingat hari2 penting mak, insyallah.

Dan hari ni, hari lahir mak yg ke 58. Happy Birthday mak. Julie tahu kita berdua tersangat jauh, sangat2 jauh. Jauh yang kalau Julie ada duit berjuta pun Julie tak dapat nak jumpa mak lagi. Tapi Julie nak mak tahu, Julie sangat rindukan mak. Rindu sangat2 nak peluk cium mak. Rindu sampai rasa nak pecah dada ni. Julie jeles tgk Fairoz call mak dia. Yela, walaupun mak dia pun mak Julie juga, tapi tak sama kan dgn mak sendiri? Dengan mak, nak tidur bawak ketiak pun takpe kan? And mak suka sangat bila Julie offer diri utk cabut ubat2 gatal mak. It was one of my favourite leisure activity. hehe.

Teringat lagi masa mengandungkan Aisya, mak bagi Julie mandi laut kat PD sbb teringin sangat2. It was like 3 weeks before you left us. And teringat lagi mak usap2 perut Julie & kita main teka2 jantina lelaki ke perempuan. Mak ingat lagi tak lepas mak chemoteraphy, kita gi jalan ke KB Mall sbb mak bosan duduk rumah. Then Julie belikan gelang jade utk mak. Orang kedai tu tanya mak ada sakit apa2 ke nak pakai jade? Then mak senyum je kat dia. So sweet.

Mak ingat tak mak marah Julie sbb hari2 call mak? Mak cakap Julie takde keje kat ofis. Hehe. Klakar. Mana boleh takde keje. Lepas mak takde, the day Julie masuk ofis, Julie terus burst into tears sbb Julie tak sengaja terangkat gagang telefon utk call mak. Sedih sangat. Hari2 selepas mak takde, anak2 mak semuanya rapuh. Seriously. Ambil masa 2-3 tahun jugala nak heal..

Tapi mak jangan risau, insyallah anak2 mak sekarang dah semakin kuat. It has been 6 years kan? Nak tahu mcmana kitorang buat? Hmm.. well, kitorang anggap mak masih ada around us. Cumanya kitorang tak dapat nak jumpa mak je. You’re always in our heart. We always remind ourselves with the thought that you always gave. We always try to be optimist in whatever we do, just like you. And we always keep in touch with each other. That’s how we cope with our lost. And mak nak tahu tak, kitorang paling takut hilang kenangan2 dengan mak. So everytime meet up, kitorang akan cerita balik kisah2 lama. Thinking of you makes all of us smile, giggle and sometimes laugh out loud. Even though deep inside our hearts, only Allah knows how miserable we are.

Sekarang cita2 mak nak Julie sambung Masters insyallah dah on the right track. Kalau dulu mak gi US, now Julie kat UK. Tapi kan, Malaysia juga paling best kan? Main banjir lagi best dari main snow. Hoho. Teringat time kecik2 dulu tiap2 tahun kita main banjir. Then makan breakfast pulut dgn ikan kering. Best ever!

Oklah mak. I need to sleep now. Esok ada kelas. Cucu2 mak yg comel2 dua2 dah tidur. Semoga mak merindui anak-anak mak.. Semoga mak ditempatkan dengan orang2 yang beriman.. Semoga kita ketemu disana.. Happy birthday again.. I love you mak.. Al-fatihah..

kalau salji katakan salji..

bila cuaca amat sejuk dan perut amat kenyang, diri ini terasa amat malas. i just had my first ever lasagna for dinner! yummy but a bit salty :P tu pon pakai leftover kuah spaghetti yg cuma tinggal semangkuk. but it's ok for a start, will try a better version soon..

oh ye, last 2 days i roasted a baby chicken ala2 jamie oliver gitu. also my first attempt menggolek seekor ayam. hehe. but it tasted out a bit sour due to too much lemon juice that i put in. well, i'll improvise it next time as hubby doesn't like lemony-taste. i think i'm gonna put honey instead and less garlic too. yummy! so, what's next? rasanya nak try bihun ladna pulak kot (dah tahap bosan mkn nasi hari2.. hihi :)

oopss, sori gaya terk*ngk*ng

3 bulan yang lalu..

3 bulan yang lalu..
aku masih di sana..
tempat lahir yang ku rindu..

3 bulan yang lalu..
aku masih tak pasti..
inikah jalan pilihanku..

tapi kini..
aku nekad dan yakin..
gulungan ijazah yang kucari..

dan kini..
aku tidak lagi ragu..
bumi Malaysia tetap di hati..

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(nota kaki:- tiba2 terasa nak karang sajak di kala amat mengantuk membuat assignment.. hohoho =)