Happy 3rd Birthday Faris Akasyah!

13th July was Faris' 3rd birthday. kejap je rasa Adek dah besar.. 3 years back, I gave birth to you on Friday, 13th July 2007, 2 days earlier than your actual EDD sbb mama kena caesarean instead of normal birth.. sedih sgt tau sbb mama expect nak deliver Faris thru normal delivery.. tapi nak buat macam mana kan, Allah lebih arif dgn percaturanNya.. then masa dlm OT tu, mama suffer jugakla sbb ada complication, doctor mcm tak dapat nak keluarkan Faris.. adakah kamu sudah engaged masa tu, wallahualam.. tah2 mama patutnya bleh beranak normal, ye tak? tak kesahla kan, yg penting you grow up healthily walaupon jaundice awal2 tu quite teruk disebabkan distress masa delivery..

Alhamdulillah, 3 tahun mama besarkan Faris, not much hassle or complication.. maybe sbb minum susu ibu tak? Kakak dulu tak merasa susu ibu sbb mama naive time tu, plus stress sbb arwah nenek baru meninggal.. and mama tak cukup strong and tak cukup support utk bfeed kakak.. Alhamdulillah, mama nekad nak breastfeed Faris, even though tak fully bfeed, sempat juga la kamu minum susu ibu sampai umur 1 tahun.. syabas utk mama! (syiok sendiri hehehe)

kamu strong, setakat jatuh katil, tunggang terbalik, semuanya no hal, maybe sbb susu ibu la kot.. seronok bleh main lasak2 dgn kamu, bleh fight2 kan?.. :) you love Legos, football, and anything mechanical.. asal ada bolt and nut, sure kamu enjoy main sorang2 2-3 jam pon takpe.. pen2 and pencils mama pon habis punah dikerjakan.. you're really like tok ayah ok.. nanti balik kampung bleh tolong tok ayah baiki enjin or mesin basuh ye sayang ^^ bleh jadi engineer bila besar nanti.. err, but jadi doctor pon boleh gaks..

Mama doakan Faris membesar jadi anak yg soleh, dengar cakap mama and papa, suka tolong orang, penyayang, rajin, pemurah, dan jadi orang yg berguna kepada agama, bangsa dan negara.. ingat ye Adek.. :) and jangan suka buli kakak, u know kan kakak tu drama queen, sensitip sgt2.. penat ok mama nak selalu dengar kakak's cry.. no buli2 ok?

Nanti balik Malaysia kita celebrate lagi sekali birthday Faris dgn birthday kakak ok, sbb kat sini kek kedai tak best.. hehe.. i will fulfill your wish to have a big cake with strawberries on top and with lots of candle.. and hadiah yg square (box kot).. love you my prince charming! 

xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

(kakak cakap x tu hugs, o tu kisses, ntah betul ke tidak huhuhu)

my superhero

Hari ni nak cerita pasal si anak teruna, Faris Akasyah. Sorry yer sayang, mama dah lama sangat sangat sangat nak blog pasal kamu. Too much to tell sampaikan mama slalu postpone (alasan hehehe). Entry ni just nak ingatkan mama progress Faris so far. Mama takde diary lain nak jot down itu ini, so hopefully bila Faris dah besar, I have something to remember about you. And you too can read this bila dah besar nanti.

Faris dah 2++ yrs, dah nak masuk 3 tahun this coming July. Kalau nak compare dgn kakak masa this age, kakak is more matured than you in terms of understanding and speech ability. But memang girls matang lebhi cepat dari boys, so don’t worry. Nothing wrong with you.

You talked a lot now when you are awake. Sampaikan mama pun heran mana Faris dapat energy nak cakap banyak2. Almost non-stop. Suara nyaring pulak tu. You’re a strong boy, sbb slalu lompat, lari, stunt and buli kakak. Hehe. Sian kakak kamu. Badan kamu ala2 ada muscle gitu, even papa pun notice.

These few days, you started to be independent during meal time. Memang masa Faris kat T* Taska dah diajar makan sendiri. But tu sebab cikgu suruh. Bila datang sini, mama or papa selalunya suap Faris sbb tak nak bersepah. But now you insist to eat on your own, be it using spoon or hand. I’m so happy for you but sad at the same time. Huhu. Faris dah big boy, not baby anymore.

Sekarang, Faris dah boleh speaking sikit2. Okla tu, better than nothing. You learned mostly from TV and kakak. Mama and papa slalunya cakap melayu jek kat rumah. But when we speak English with you, you usually understood, walaupun nak cakap balik tak berapa reti. Faham tgk cartoon pun dah cukup bagus. Your favourite cartoon/TV shows are Lazy Town, Dora, Ben & Holly, Humf and Peppa Pig. Kalau dulu mama bagi tgk Ultraman and Power Rangers, skarang mama dah banned sbb Faris ‘mengganas’ lepas tgk cerita2 action-packed ni. Until you can choose mana yg ok and mana yg tak ok, mama will ban that kind of entertainment.

Seronok pulak mama bercerita pasal kamu ni. You are so friendly, tak kisahla dgn anak mat salleh or anak Pakistan, semuanya Faris selamba je tegur or ajak main sama2 bila kat park. And yes, you love the park/playground soooo much!! Kalau hari2 pergi park pun tak boring. You like to play football dengan siapa2 jer, slalunya big boys. Then sedih sbb abang2 slalu taknak pass bola kat Faris. Hehe. Kelakar sangat. Bila kamu buat muka sedih, then abang2 pun layan jela sbb takut mama marah diorang. Don’t worry, kalau Faris suka sgt main bola, nanti papa ajar betul2 so that bila besar boleh jadi professional, siapa tahu kan?

Oklah, mama nak sambung buat literature review. For info, at this age, kakak dah dapat adik which is you. So, will you get a brother/sister too any sooner? Kalau mama tanya, Faris cakap nak adik girl. Kakak pun sama. Insyallah, kalau ada rezeki.. but not now, later ok.. love you so much!!

I'm back..

but rasanya just for a while..

Me – currently in new position (no no, not upgraded yet), triple works, ½ stress.. and that’s why I don’t blog for a looooong time.. my new unit is actually the 1st unit I joined in when I started working with this company.. best sbb mcm family sendiri & the new job require me to think a lot.. I do network design for leased line services, best sbb task baru..

Hubby – 2nd semester of his EMBA.. GO HUBBY GO!!! 1st sem he got 1st class and I’m sooo proud of him (behind a successful man is always a woman.. he he he) We need to sacrifice all of our weekends, tak dapat balik kampung and tak dapat cuti2 Malaysia.. I must insist a vacation during his sem break, which is 2 months.. tak kira, kena gi cuti2 juga, tak kesahla kat mana..

Aisya – diaper-free except for poo poo and at nighttime.. 1 week enrolled with Dzuliman, and Alhamdulillah so far.. Start making new friends and start learning Iqra’ already.. Handwriting and coloring skills improved, except for the choice of colors, hancuss.. sangat pandai main dgn Faris, tapi at times jealous gile especially bila mama susukan adiknya..

Faris – 7m.o and still on breastfeeding (80%)! I’m sooo proud that I still bf him, despite the tiredness and lack of expressed milk due to my tight schedule at work.. He started crawling at 4m.o and now already attempted to stand on his own.. Lotih jaga this teruna coz I need to keep my eyes on him at all time.. sangat manja, maybe because of bf kot.. hopefully I will continue to bf at least until he turns 1y.o.

New house – just completed renovation (little only).. actually we plan to move in during CNY but now already delay for 1 month.. hubby is so busy with his EMBA and I am so busy taking care of the kids.. as of now, the next tentative date will be mid-March.. harap2 dah takde delay lagi.. penat ulang-alik to settle things..

Alamak.. Faris is awake already.. bye bye for now.. ntah bila lagi boleh memblog.. hu hu hu.. miss my sweet time blogging..

menyusu si permata hati..

Alhamdulillah, dah 2 bulan lebih saya berjaya menyusu permata hati kedua saya, Faris.. rasa bangga jugaklah sbb masa lepas bersalinkan dia, saya agak skeptical dgn kemampuan saya.. maklumlah, masa bersalinkan Aisya, saya kurang ilmu, support & kesabaran untuk bf.. baby pon sama, tak sabar.. dengan Faris, dia banyak membantu saya.. dia kuat tido, so saya tak cepat panic.. seminggu lebih susu saya tak cukup sampaikan berat Faris reduced & dia dapat jaundice, tapi Faris tetap sabar.. lepas dah balik Kelantan & mengurut, barulah susu saya banyak..

Cabaran BF..

Saya masuk kerja on 11 sept dan 13 sept kita mula berpuasa.. agak mencabarlah jugak sbb saya baru nak practice mengepam susu di office.. saya taknak terlalu pressure memikirkan ttg stok EBM saya cukup atau tidak sepanjang Ramadhan.. bila ada masa terluang saya pump, banyak atau sikit tu cerita kedua.. setakat ni masih sempat mengepam 2 kali di ofis.. susu saya tak banyak sgt, sekali pam the most saya pernah dapat 6oz.. normally 4-5oz.. lepas 2 kali mengepam, baru dapat around 8-9oz.. so lepas balik kerja or malam saya perlu mengepam sekurang2nya lagi 1 round.. Faris minum 3oz, 5 feedings.. kadang2 jer saya dapat stok 15oz tuh.. stok beku dah lama tak ada sbb kalau weekend, saya fully bf dan terasa terlalu lemah & kering utk mengepam stok.. kalau EBM saya tak cukup, makcik nursery yg menjaga Faris akan berikan formula yg saya bekalkan..

i set my mind to be positive sbb kalau saya keep on susah hati, susu pon makin kurang.. yang penting, i will try my best everyday.. yg bestnye, kat ofis ada geng mengepam, so takdela boring sgt.. jeles jugak kekadang sbb EBM dia lagi banyak berbanding saya.. :) lagi jeles bila tanya2 member2 yg lain, sekali pam diorang bleh dapat 10oz, 12oz dan ada yg sampai 15oz sekali pam! marvellous! lagi satu, saya juga keep on bagi support dekat member2 yg EBMnya lagi kurang drpd saya.. Alhamdulillah, ada yg dah stop mengepam di ofis dah kembali mengepam walaupon hasilnya sedikit.. nasihat saya, yang penting we must keep on pumping & try our best! that's the best gift ever for our child.. :)

dari segi berpuasa & BF, saya rasa stok susu saya tak banyak bezanya dgn before berpuasa.. saya cuba amalkan apa yg disarankan member2 & what i learn thru reading.. minum air banyak2, makan nasi, makan sayur, minum soya & makan kurma.. Alhamdulillah, badan takdela lesu sgt di ofis, sempat lagi pegi shopping di midvalley & sogo.. he he.. tapi on weekend, a bit tiring sbb Faris asyik menyusu.. suka betul dia bila mama tak kerja.. sampaikan bila dah nak iftar, nak bercakap pon saya dah tak larat sbb tekak terasa kering amat.. bila azan jer, airla yg saya capai dulu (tak sempat nak ambik sunat mkn kurma).. harapan saya agar saya dapat BF sekurang2nya 6 bulan.. lagi best kalau dapat mencapai setahun..

semoga Allah makbulkan niat murni saya.. :)

Faris Akasyah

Faris - 1 hari

Faris - 1 minggu (sedikit tan selepas phototherapy session)

Faris - 1 bulan (selepas dibotakkan Papa & Tok Ayah)

Nota kaki: gambar tak berapa clear sbb ambik guna hp..

Alhamdulillah..

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It was 12th July morning and I need to visit Dr Delaila again since the baby is not out yet.. After the Dr have a regular check-up on me, she was quite worried that baby tak full-engaged lagi walaupon only 3 days left to EDD.. she sent me for an x-ray to check on the pelvic opening.. I started to feel nervous on what to expect.. hubby wasn't by my side at that time.. after 2 hours waiting, i get the x-ray result and returned to Dr Delaila's clinic.. Dr Delaila determined the x-ray result and informed me that it's difficult for me to try normal delivery as the birth canal is 7.8cm while the baby's head is 10cm.. "Caesarean again??" and the Doc said YES.. well, kita hanya merancang, Allah yg menentukan.. during Aisya I went thru emergency C-sect sbb fetal distress, this time plak it's due to CPD (contracted pelvis apa tah..) tapi sbb pelvic opening not wide enough for the baby's head to pass thru, mostly because the canal doesn't open wide during the 1st delivery.. Doc cakap kalau nak cuba normal boleh tapi dia confident that I will go thru the same episode like it was during Aisya if I gave a try.. dengan hati yg sebak, hati ini meredhakan ketentuanNya.. "asalkan mama & baby selamat" I whispered to myself.. My operation was scheduled on Friday afternoon, which is the next day.. I told hubby and he shared the same feelings with me.. then we comfort ourselves, bukan nak anak ramai sangat pon.. 4 paling ramai, enough la tu..

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So, the next morning, we packed everything and went to SJMC.. after checked-in to the ward and have the normal procedures, I was pushed to the OT at 3.00pm.. I had ephidural at about 3.20pm.. the anaesthetist did a great job, i felt only a slight pain on my back.. semuanya rasa cepat sangat.. my sight was covered with a cloth and my lower body started to feel numb.. I can feel Dr Delaila made an incission on my womb and think it's funny because I didn't feel any pain.. after about 5 minutes, I started to feel weird and nervous, why the baby isn't coming out yet? I can still remember it was so easy peasy during Aisya.. everybody kept silent and busy doing their job, unlike during Aisya where they chit chat about Hari Raya.. after a while, 2 people were pushing hard on my tummy to get the baby out.. I was suffocating and told the nurses that I couldn't breath.. I felt so tired and worried and eventually burst into tears.. the anaesthetist came to me and comfort me.. he said that everything's gonna be alright.. Finally the baby is out and I cried upon hearing the baby's cry.. the nurse brought the baby to me so that i could kiss him.. I kissed him and cried.. the nurse brought the baby out to the nursery and that was the last thing I remembered.. I woke up some time later and found myself in the recovery room.. a nurse stood by me and I asked her "where is my baby?" and she said "don't worry, the baby's in the nursery".. I was too tired that I felt asleep before the operation ended..

Alhamdulillah, everything was just fine despite the complication I had in the OT.. so, 13th July 2007 3.52pm, bertambah lagi seorang ahli keluarga En Fairoz.. and we named our baby boy Faris Akasyah.. Faris means yang alim/ahli firasat while Akasyah is the name of Rasulullah's friend.. besides, arwah mak pernah suruh letak nama Akasyah kat nama anak sempena nama my hubby.. Alhamdulillah, dah termakbul niatnya..

Ok, that's enough for now.. will upload Faris's picture and update on my confinement story later on! oh btw, I spoke English while I was in the OT.. bile pk balik, cam klakar plak rasa.. hehe